I really didnt know there was an advice section on civicforums, i guess i stick around on the main page too much. I duno if this is even worth it, telling people about personal problems and what not.. but what the hell
The past year, exactly, has been horrible. I seriously cant think of a worse time in my life.. then again, im only 18. I move out in one week to Orlando, Florida. I think this is whats been stressing me out so much lately. Ive always been the good kid in the family, im not even gonna lie. My dads a fuck up, my older brothers a fuck up, my moms not going anywhere, my sister isnt as i guess dedicated or whatever to school, but me, ive always somehow progressed in one way or another. ive always been able to maintain myself. Ive also never been somebody to back down from anything. any challenge or just anything thats been put in front of me, i was alwyas able to say yea..i can do that. But now, i can honestly say i dont know if i can get through all of this. Im going to be starting school in a couple weeks, (reason for moving to orlando) and I duno what it is but i cant see myself past this year.. i just dont see anything working out the way i want it to.
It seems like the past year, nothing has worked out the way i want it to. The girl situation is complete bullshit. Ive always been able to pick a nice girl, ive alwyas kept them. Then last year, after a year and a half with a really great girl (seriously) i got cheated on. that threw me off big time, but i guess first time for everything. Then i go and get back with the girl i had before her, and THE SAME SHIT HAPPENED. soo wtf.. same boat.. then i had alot of issues with friends of mine. because people are full of shit. im seriously ready to leave the place that im in now. maybe thats one reason i decided on going to school in orlando, cuz this place is garbage. The people here are bullsh*t, the girls are all whores...waste of time city this is. On top of that, im making money in my job, i should be banking.. but um no luck there, and why cuz im spending money on shit i dont need.
Everybody in my family has put a big boulder on my shoulders u know? im the one that has to go somewhere and make something of myself and make something of the family name.. how the hell am i suppose to do that? im just Jose.. i feel like i have to prove to somebody, something. and i dont know what that is.
I know what i have to do, but i just cant see myself doing anything. i guess i keep thinking that something somewhere along the line is gona f*ck everything up..i feel like i have nothing to fall back on. i cant see myself doing anything all of the sudden. like im shut down from everything. like i cant connect with anything anymore. before last year, everything was fine...perfect.. best time of my life and now, everything went to shit. i dont know how to handle all this.. im just stressed.. i dont see myslef making it or proving anything to anyone. i feel like this is the end.. seriously. i dont see myslef making it past another day, but i keep making it. i duno what im expecting exactly.. but its like wth..what am i here for.. why me u know, why did all this get dumped on me.. why did eveyrthing go to hell when eveyrting was fine..
i just need answers, and i know nobody can give them to me.. whatever.. its just a rant.. input your advice or opinions or questions if you want.. thanks
Well, all I can say is that life in genreal is hard.
Sh!t will always hit the fan. But we all move on. Its the hard times that define a person. Some break and fall out; while others rise from the ashes of hardtimes reborn with a better understanding of things.
The first years alone and on your own are rough. But try to have fun so you have a distractions from your problems. Things can't be bad all the time unless you make it that way. That fun time will help your dampered disposition fade away.
Sure girls are great, but lets face it all people are untrusting at some point. But just have faith that Good karma comes back to you. And get a Good chuckle thinking that bad karma will come back to those that did you wrong sooner or later.
So buck up. and keep in mind that there are people out there doing WAY worse than you. So be greatful that you are who you are and your doing what your doing.
yea.. i mean im over the gurl situations pretty much but sumtimes i end up thinking back to it all like.. damn that sucked..
i know there are people way worse than i am.. but then again im not them u know? this is my situation and i have to deal with it in my own way.. and i guess i wasnt as good with stress as i thought i was..
i feel like i have a better understanding of things..especially people and how different they can be and act..
i just feel down.. maybe its this post move in crap..im sure once im there ill have fun.. i have two cool roommates im moving in with and were all goin to the same place so we'll see..
The girl I dated before I got married to the women I'm with now; I dated for a year and right at the end of that year I found that she was "licking" her best friends' taco the whole time I was with her. When I hit her up about it, she said "Thats none of your business" and stormed off. The next She moved from her parents house and me being none the wiser. And, I never saw her again.
This may or may not help you, but I used to stress about pitching performances back in high school. I would always nit pick, and find things that I did wrong expecting it to change something, and always trying to be perfect. One of my baseball coaches finally got it outta my head, and he only said one thing to me. Don't sweat the small shit, and btw its all small shit. If everything was good or perfect what would be the point? Girls cheat on you, thats a them problem, not a you problem. Your family not being exactly what you wanted, thats a them problem as well. All you can do is be you man. Life live for yourself not for others want it to be. Just because they screw up theirs doesn't mean you should have to carry the burden. Just keep it cool, and do well it school. Have fun and live for the now, and good things will come to you. Good luck.
ur absolutely right PitchBlack. why be upset and stress how other people treat me... its there problem, not mine. I know thats what i want to believe but sumtimes thats pretty hard. i knw everyone goes through rough times but sumtimes i dont even know how people get thru it. i just feel like nothings getting better, like if im sitting here waiting for sumthing to go right..and its not me making them wrong.. like theres nothing i can do about certain things, and those certain things are just JDGJKJGFJ crap...
This sounds cheesy, but find your happy place man. Whether that is meditating like someone suggested, listening to uplifting music, reading positive things whatever it is you gotta find it and go there when shit hits the fan. Life isn't about IF shit will hit the fan, its how you deal with it when it does, and it will, and frequently. Hope things get better like I said. Later!
Advice? Hmm... decide to do something for yourself, and not to impress your family. As you said, they are all fuck ups, so whatever you do positive is going to be better then they do, as fuck ups. Don't worry about what they think of you,and do it because it's for you. You have to be selfish sometimes, even if that means alienating the ones you love, and the ones that you are friends with.
As for your friends, I'll assume you're going to college in Orlando. I have a small secret for you, the vast majority of those friends (95% or more), you'll rarely, if ever, see again, after high school. I was thinking that I'd stay in touch with all of my high school friends (and there were a lot of them). I've talked to about 10 of them since our senior trip, and that was going on 7 years ago (wow, I am getting old). I don't regret anything I did with them hanging out, partying, all that, but I knew that it was a phase of my life that was going to end. I faced reality, and you must do the same. Realize that those friends that you really care about, or care about you will keep in touch and encourage you.
As for the girl situation, I know how you feel. But you know what, there are lots of other girls out there, and lots of good girls out there to generalize them all into the category as whores. You just haven't met the type of girl for you. But, you are in the prime of your life, why do you feel the desire, or need to be tied down to one? Date as many as you can, and if it's your style, sleep with lots of them. If not, don't sleep with lots of them, but do keep on going out in search of them. As you will eventually find the one that meshes with you and your personality, and your ambitions.
Don't lose hope, or give up on your aspirations. And don't let anyone hold you back. You need to do something for yourself, and this move is the perfect opportunity. Good luck bro.
